Friday, December 11, 2009;
A Year of Growth
? 5:17 AM
It is
6 more days to a cycle of
365 days before I made my last entry.
Life wasn't like before. The carefree, simple, jovial, bubbly, easily angry little Amy anymore. The past year of trials and tribulations is the most difficult part of my walk with Jesus and the most difficult part of my life.
The 1st half of the year began with learning a dark secret of my family and coping with sinister family background that I had never knew. Yet this was not the most trying part of my faith.
The 2nd half of the year went on with stronger spiritual attacks that could just robbed me not just of my faith but my life. My dearest and best-est of friends or rather my darling "mum" passed away. Yet again in my life, I lost the love of my life. 18 years ago was my grandmother and it had created a deep wound in my heart. 18 years later, its the friend that I would die for. Seriously, I thought of ways to end my life and cried throughout almost every single days to the point that my eyes are seriously sore.
But God had never failed to show me His love even in times when I decided to question or challenge Him. I asked God if you want to torture me then why not you kill me. But each time, God would just be ever gracious to me in alot of ways.
He even provided me with a hope to live on for tomorrow and provided the means to it. I managed to get into UniSim to do a 3yrs direct honours course for Biomedical Engineering when I do not have Biology background. I was even provided for my school fees before the close of the payment deadline to pay for my school fees.
When God closes one way, He opens manymore other ways for you. I have only 1 strong wish now which is for my celgroup to revive and grew stronger and stronger each day.
Amen!
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.
