Saturday, July 17, 2010;
A new revelation
? 12:38 PM
Yesterday, Pastor Kong preached about the topic on
LOVE.
Pastor Kong preached that there are 4 ways of expressing love in Greek language.
1) Storge (
Love of family)
2) Eros (
Love of passion)
3) Phileo (
Love of friendship)
4) Agape (
Love of total commitment. It can also be interpreted as the love for God.)
His focus was on
Agape the love for God and total commitment and based on
Ephesians 3:18.
"may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height" - Ephesians 3:18 (NKJV)#1 Width of God's Love God is broadminded, welcoming and all accepting.#2 Length of God's Love Your mercy, O LORD, is in the heavens;
Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.
Your righteousness is like the great mountains;
Your judgments are a great deep;
O LORD, You preserve man and beast.
- Psalm 36:5-6 (NKJV)God is ever loving, everlasting and limitless. He is ever patient and long suffering with us. He loves us so much that He grants every desires of our heart and every prayers of ours even after we pass on from earth.#3 Height of God's Love God wishes for us to be successful and perfect like Him. Therefore He is more interested in our character than giving us instant success.
"Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect." - Matthew 5:48 (NKJV)#4 Depth of God's Love Pastor Kong shared about Lazarus's resurrection. He mentioned that Mary and Martha (Lazarus' sisters) wept all the way from their home to Lazarus' tomb while leading Jesus there. When Jesus asked for Lazarus' tomb, He wept.
Surely He has borne our griefs
And carried our sorrows;
Yet we esteemed Him stricken,
Smitten by God, and afflicted.
But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed.
- Isaiah 53:4-5
Jesus cares for us so much that He wants to be a part of our lives. He weeps, when we weep. He smiles when we smile. He is joyful when we are in joy. He loves us even before we learn to love. His heart is broken and aches when we are heartbroken.-----------------------------------------------------------------------
My New RevelationAs I heard the words from Pastor Kong's sermon, a revelation came to me from Heaven. God spoke about an issue in my life. When I pray for a miracle or something in my life, I have forgotten to trust Him with it.
There were a few visions given by God and eventually did not come to pass. God spoke that the reason that it did not come to pass was not that He had not given. I had no faith in Him to receive them.
I had been praying for God to send me someone to love me and for this person to be a faithful servant and man of God. Yes, I prayed for this and cause I was envious of the increasing married young couples around me. I had never experienced eros before. I do not deny that I desire it but I am also fearful of it. I fear of failing in relationships. I fear of rejections. This is because I am never confident about my looks and always thought I am not worthy to be anyone's girlfriend or eventually spouse.
Recently, I had a vision from God about having someone to love me and be with me. There is a clear indication of who this person will be. Yet again, I doubt. I wonder that someone of this good quality, am I truly worthy. Is he truly meant for me? Someone who is fat and not pretty like me. I do not deny I do have talents perhaps even matching his abilities or the potential to match his talents. But my problem is always in doubt of myself and God's ability. But God asked me to trust in Him and His promises today. I decided in my heart in the service that I will stop asking if it is possible or am I worthy kind of questions. I decided to let God take the lead and eventually leading the two of us to one another and falling in love and getting married and having children and serving and loving God together eventually.
God, I pray this day that I may learn to lean of Your power and guidance.
Let me learn to trust in all Your goodness and promises.
Let me grow stronger each day in Your kingdom.
Let me work towards forming a family that You had intended for me.
Let me trust in every vision and dreams that You have put before and in me.
Let me love You each and every breath of my life.
Teach me how to pray and show me of Your way.
Let me be a faithful servant of Yours and be trusting in every word You spoke and will speak to me.
Let me trust in the visions and dreams You had promised to me and will promise to me.
Let me have more of You and less of me.
Let me die to my self and take on Your spirit and live.
Holy Spirit, come into me this day and fill me with faith and hope and love.
Let me learn to trust in God and leave all my fears and failures to Him.
Let me learn to accept shortfalls of men and my self.
Let me not be judgemental and critical.
Let me be loving. Let me be caring.
Let me be patient and long suffering as You did unto me.
Let me be forgiving. Let me be humble and not prideful.
Let me not covet or lust after what is not mine.
Let me be pure and not be sexually immoral before You.
Let me love You. Let me be by Your side.
Let me serve You.
I want to be with You, Lord!
That is my desire and my love and my heart.
Please, don't leave me or ignore me.
Love me, Lord.
Love me more with each increasing day.
I want You, Lord.
I don't want to be separated from You, Lord.
Please grant me all the desires of my heart and let me learn to trust You with every step I take and every move I make.
Make each day be a happy and joyous day in You like how I started out 2.5 years ago.
Let me find back my first love.
Fill my heart.
Fill me with Your presence.
Anoint me!
Let me serve in City Harvest Church whichever ministry you pick for me.
I love You, I love You, I love You! I can't stop loving You, God!
I can't go back to where I used to be, a place without You and Your love.
I can't.
And let me be healthy and blessed and rich and affluent =D
PLEASE let me be in Your presence forever. In Jesus's mighty name I pray and ask for all these from my heart.
AMEN! HALLELUJAH!
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.
